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Friday afternoon.
Jul. 10th, 2009 04:04 pmWhilst I attempted to work from home today, I was forced to admit defeat a few hours ago, and basically have spent much of the afternoon watching TV, surfing the net, and trying to 'keep it together', wrapped up against the cold in a huge blanket. Ever since the appointment, life has just been a blur, with things happening, with much happening on autopilot, meaning that I cant really remember whats happened. I suspect that there's been some good, quite a lot of bad and even more entirely forgettable.
I do know that C & I have started to have conversations about arrangements, which, are incredibly unpleasant and feel guiltily hypocritical, especially when Katie is kicking as whilst we try to be unemotional and rational - but we do know that they are important. If it gets much worse, then, well, it will lose the ability to get much worse - and we need to know what we have to do for her, for each other and our wider families - be these biological or emotional. Also, in a similar vein, I've informed my boss that its fairly likely that I will be off sick for an extended period, starting in October, should the outcomes be as expected.
Still, I'm relatively functional, on a minute-by-minute basis, though past performance is no guarantee of future functionality. Today has been, oddly, that much worse than yesterday, or even Wednesday when we got the news. I suspect that its the weather. Its flat and cold and grey after the humidity and stress of the last few days.
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I do know that C & I have started to have conversations about arrangements, which, are incredibly unpleasant and feel guiltily hypocritical, especially when Katie is kicking as whilst we try to be unemotional and rational - but we do know that they are important. If it gets much worse, then, well, it will lose the ability to get much worse - and we need to know what we have to do for her, for each other and our wider families - be these biological or emotional. Also, in a similar vein, I've informed my boss that its fairly likely that I will be off sick for an extended period, starting in October, should the outcomes be as expected.
Still, I'm relatively functional, on a minute-by-minute basis, though past performance is no guarantee of future functionality. Today has been, oddly, that much worse than yesterday, or even Wednesday when we got the news. I suspect that its the weather. Its flat and cold and grey after the humidity and stress of the last few days.
S