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I've just come back from the doctor - he has prescribed me a weeks course of sleeping tablets, hopefully to stop this persistent headache I've got. As a stress reaction, its nothing new - I'm prone to migranes anyway, and stress has always tended to trigger them, and they are very definitely stress related - bright lights trigger them, intense nausea & halos around objects - the works. Its a migrane.
This, however, was not the difficult bit.
The difficult bit was talking to my boss afterwards - he wants me back in the office as soon as possible and wasn't really prepared to take 'because the doctor said I was sick' as an excuse which almost made me loose it down the phone at him. I understand that its an emotional thing and should be treated as such, but I'm just NOT READY to come back in now, and if you cant understand that, then surely thats your problem?
In fairness, his reasoning is that he wants to get me back into a routine as soon as possible, but his handling of it was incredibly blunt, to hte point of being insulting; after repeatedly demanding me to explain the doctors reasoning, I just choked up. I was about to burst into tears before he backed off & frankly the entire conversation has left me worse than I have been for a while. I did tell him that I would be happy to see the independent doctor whenever convenient, but I'm not ready, not yet.
My intention is to go back to work, at the end of the month. Hopefully this should be reasonable? To take a month off as sick leave after the death of my daughter. Surely thats not unreasonable? Surely? Especially as part of me thinks that I'll never ever be able to work again.
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This, however, was not the difficult bit.
The difficult bit was talking to my boss afterwards - he wants me back in the office as soon as possible and wasn't really prepared to take 'because the doctor said I was sick' as an excuse which almost made me loose it down the phone at him. I understand that its an emotional thing and should be treated as such, but I'm just NOT READY to come back in now, and if you cant understand that, then surely thats your problem?
In fairness, his reasoning is that he wants to get me back into a routine as soon as possible, but his handling of it was incredibly blunt, to hte point of being insulting; after repeatedly demanding me to explain the doctors reasoning, I just choked up. I was about to burst into tears before he backed off & frankly the entire conversation has left me worse than I have been for a while. I did tell him that I would be happy to see the independent doctor whenever convenient, but I'm not ready, not yet.
My intention is to go back to work, at the end of the month. Hopefully this should be reasonable? To take a month off as sick leave after the death of my daughter. Surely thats not unreasonable? Surely? Especially as part of me thinks that I'll never ever be able to work again.
S