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Monday. Brilliant.
Mar. 21st, 2005 08:49 amMonday. Usually not the most fantastic day of the week, but it pays the bills. Sometimes I look at other people and am impressed that they seem to really “buy into” this entire organisational ethos / work thing – you know, be supportive of the general goals of the organisation, take work home and generally try to be proactive on its part.
Me? I don’t feel that way. I used to, but I guess that having been a temp (by any other name) for so long in the NHS kind of wears that out of you – you make it known that you’re prepared to go the extra mile to get something done & demonstrate some enthusiasm and what happens? S/0d all, that’s what.
I’ve been promised (and I mean, hand on heart out & out promises too) that I’m going to be made permanent here at East Leeds at least 9 times in the last 3 months or so. These tend to have a half-life of about 48 hours before they’re totally forgotten or heavy backtracking takes place. There’s nothing like getting repeated motivational promises that are promptly forgotten to demotivate someone. That and the fact that the same old cr/ap seems to be constantly landing on my desk.
I’d look around for something else, but as part of this weekends fun & excitement, C forced me to promise that I would not look for anything else until “things settled down” – so that’s no interviews for me (which is good, ‘cos they’re a pain in the backside) but the downside is that I’m dependent upon my current employers on actually following through on the whole “permanence” thing, and the contract is up for renewal in a month. I cant understand why I’m still here: there’s no job satisfaction, no permanence and a lousy salary to boot – but its reasonably safe, reasonably comfortable, I like my fellow 'shrooms and C wants some stability in her life, so... I guess that here I will remain. God knows I would do anything for her, but at the same time, I wish I could get a job that actually paid semi-decently. Or even was just permanent & at the current level. Ohhh! The unreasonable fantasies that I have!
Speaking of fantasies, Eds game was fun yesterday; a different slant on the regular D&D background, though I did think that there were too many people in the group (as per my previous comments). I’ve always found that PC’s are jealous, attention seeking little oiks – if they don’t get what they feel is their fair share of attention, then they get antsy & irritable. :o)
Aside from that, it had a lot of good stuff about it; the world was different & interesting, the plot came together quite nicely. Looking forward to the next session, subject to my character being tweaked – my characters points were devoted to getting “healing”, so I could go “shazam” and heal someone – as an expense of this I was rather feeble and also not very good in a fight.
So when I came up to heal someone, instead of “shazam” I went “now you get off to bed for 8 hours, young man and heal at double rate”. So perhaps some tweaking might be in order...!
But fun nonetheless
S
Me? I don’t feel that way. I used to, but I guess that having been a temp (by any other name) for so long in the NHS kind of wears that out of you – you make it known that you’re prepared to go the extra mile to get something done & demonstrate some enthusiasm and what happens? S/0d all, that’s what.
I’ve been promised (and I mean, hand on heart out & out promises too) that I’m going to be made permanent here at East Leeds at least 9 times in the last 3 months or so. These tend to have a half-life of about 48 hours before they’re totally forgotten or heavy backtracking takes place. There’s nothing like getting repeated motivational promises that are promptly forgotten to demotivate someone. That and the fact that the same old cr/ap seems to be constantly landing on my desk.
I’d look around for something else, but as part of this weekends fun & excitement, C forced me to promise that I would not look for anything else until “things settled down” – so that’s no interviews for me (which is good, ‘cos they’re a pain in the backside) but the downside is that I’m dependent upon my current employers on actually following through on the whole “permanence” thing, and the contract is up for renewal in a month. I cant understand why I’m still here: there’s no job satisfaction, no permanence and a lousy salary to boot – but its reasonably safe, reasonably comfortable, I like my fellow 'shrooms and C wants some stability in her life, so... I guess that here I will remain. God knows I would do anything for her, but at the same time, I wish I could get a job that actually paid semi-decently. Or even was just permanent & at the current level. Ohhh! The unreasonable fantasies that I have!
Speaking of fantasies, Eds game was fun yesterday; a different slant on the regular D&D background, though I did think that there were too many people in the group (as per my previous comments). I’ve always found that PC’s are jealous, attention seeking little oiks – if they don’t get what they feel is their fair share of attention, then they get antsy & irritable. :o)
Aside from that, it had a lot of good stuff about it; the world was different & interesting, the plot came together quite nicely. Looking forward to the next session, subject to my character being tweaked – my characters points were devoted to getting “healing”, so I could go “shazam” and heal someone – as an expense of this I was rather feeble and also not very good in a fight.
So when I came up to heal someone, instead of “shazam” I went “now you get off to bed for 8 hours, young man and heal at double rate”. So perhaps some tweaking might be in order...!
But fun nonetheless
S
