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...meaning that its now, again, unpleasantly muggy, here in Euroland-under-sea.
Emotionally, today is better than yesterday; not only have I been able to apply myself to some tasks in a coherent manner, I have also dealt with several, unpleasant, family matters in a rational & coherent way too. I have no idea how long this plateau of relative normality is going to last as my fragile super-ego holds on by the skin of its teeth, but I intend to make the most of it whilst I'm here.
I suspect that its attributed in part to my improved nutrition; eating junk food, whilst useful in providing bulk calories, replenishing salt-levels and filling the dumb-void of 'something to do, except thinking', has - as far as I can tell - side effects of lethargy, mood swings and general feeling bad-ness. As you can imagine, this is not something that I really want, so I'm taking a leaf from Grampus's book and am trying to busy myself in the kitchen, either cooking or sous-chefing for C. I'm glad to report that my efforts have largely been adequate to date, so thats a life skill that I'm garnering. Todays effort is a beef stew, inspired by last nights episode of super-sizers, which, at present, smells truly delicious.
Part of the mood improvement has also been the 'working from home in the afternoon' schtick; I get to see people, interact, get home, do some shopping and cleaning, and then try to work in the afternoon. So far, mixed results, but I think that I will be able to hold it together between now and Thursday, when we have the next cardiologist appointment.
So, you know. Today is a good day. Ok, its muggy and I cannot understand Jons crossword-style LJ entry headers (I've never, ever, solved a single cyrptic-ish crossword clue in my entire life. I guess my brain just isn't wired that way), but these are minor irritations in the grand scheme of things.
S
Emotionally, today is better than yesterday; not only have I been able to apply myself to some tasks in a coherent manner, I have also dealt with several, unpleasant, family matters in a rational & coherent way too. I have no idea how long this plateau of relative normality is going to last as my fragile super-ego holds on by the skin of its teeth, but I intend to make the most of it whilst I'm here.
I suspect that its attributed in part to my improved nutrition; eating junk food, whilst useful in providing bulk calories, replenishing salt-levels and filling the dumb-void of 'something to do, except thinking', has - as far as I can tell - side effects of lethargy, mood swings and general feeling bad-ness. As you can imagine, this is not something that I really want, so I'm taking a leaf from Grampus's book and am trying to busy myself in the kitchen, either cooking or sous-chefing for C. I'm glad to report that my efforts have largely been adequate to date, so thats a life skill that I'm garnering. Todays effort is a beef stew, inspired by last nights episode of super-sizers, which, at present, smells truly delicious.
Part of the mood improvement has also been the 'working from home in the afternoon' schtick; I get to see people, interact, get home, do some shopping and cleaning, and then try to work in the afternoon. So far, mixed results, but I think that I will be able to hold it together between now and Thursday, when we have the next cardiologist appointment.
So, you know. Today is a good day. Ok, its muggy and I cannot understand Jons crossword-style LJ entry headers (I've never, ever, solved a single cyrptic-ish crossword clue in my entire life. I guess my brain just isn't wired that way), but these are minor irritations in the grand scheme of things.
S
